Take one step forward then back
I don’t .now what to think anymore. on some days I start to feel like it is okay to get out if the house and I do pretty good while out (never, ever alone), then we get home and I freak out for even attempting to have gone out of the house This whole panic disorder with agoraphobia is driving me crazy… I cannot drive my car because i panic and just cannot do it. Sometimes I wonder if there some kind of button in my brain I can just turn off and go back to who I once was…. I am both scared and confused.since September 18th I can honestly count on one hand the times I have been out of my house (not including doctor or therapy appointments… Do people get over this? what are ways of helping myself? How do you explain all this to your non-English speaking parents? They both feel that I should be way over it by now, because I’ been off work since September 18th.. I try to get out but all I end up doing is crying, I am sure this in no way can be normal… Please if anyone has answers, please pass them my way.
Thank you in advance,
got out of the house today to go to therapy. Progress being made in baby steps. Tomorrow I am striving to go for a small walk outside. Just around my apartment complex… Baby steps…….
I’ve taken a big step in my agoraphobia recovery today by asking a nurse that i get on well with, but not hugely to take me outside to go to the shop.
Absolutely shitting it and i suppose i should get ready.
I’ve gotten to where lately at night I get really, I don’t know like a combination of nervous, and panicked, and depressed. I’ve been staying up kinda late, I find that it helps me to calm down when I get on my laptop and do something.
This all started about a week ago when I went to knitting night at the library. I came home and just cried all night. I was in a kina of hysteria that I don’t remember being in but once in my life after my mom died. I still don’t know exactly why that happened. But that’s what caused my night episodes I have now. I can’t really talk to anyone about it. All I have is my family and they aren’t any help at all, usually just the opposite. I wish I still had some kind of counselor I could talk to. Just someone.I don’t have a friend in the world. Even typing this makes me feel better. I wish I could talk to other people with SA and agoraphobia.
Do you know if you can get PTSD from panic disorder? Or, in other words, can going through multiple prolonged panic episodes be traumatizing and cause agoraphobia?
Yes, PTSD and panic disorder commonly co-occur.